The King's Mandate: Anomalous System

Chapter 96: Do You Love Me?

"Talk about us?"

"Yes. Please sit"

I sat on the chair in front of her.

She stared at me for a while and sighed.

"What?"

She stood up and sat on the chair next to me.

"Das Ryle"

She grabbed my hand and came close to me.

"Miss Serah...you are to close"

"I know"

Then don't do it!

She moved her face further closer...we will kiss if she gets any closer.

"Miss?"

She stopped right in front of my face. Her lips are very close to mine. If any of us move even a little, we will end up kissing.

She is looking into my eyes.

Sigh~~ 

Why are you sighing after looking at me?!

She stepped back and said, "Don't worry. I called you here for a talk. I won't do something you won't like"

She won't?!

"Why did you do it then?"

"I was just checking how you react to that"

"...."

"You didn't stop me. Does that mean you are okay with kissing me?"

"I..."

"But you didn't move to kiss me either"

"I just didn't know how to react"

"I thought I would get the answer if I did that"

"Answer?"

"If you had stopped me, then that would mean that you don't like it. Hence, you don't like me"

"It's not like that"

"I know. You didn't stop me, but you didn't kiss me either. I am confused"

"...."

"I can't understand your feelings"

I don't understand them either! 

"I don't hate you"

"Does that mean you like me?" 

"I don't know"

"It's been a while since I confessed to you. I will confess again" 

"Wha--"

"Das Ryle, I love you"

"....."

"What is your answer?"

I was so busy with the stuff with Lily and Lier that I didn't get any time to think about Miss Serah.

She just confessed to me again. I can't leave her hanging. I have to answer.

What should I answer?

Do I love her?

Do I want her?

Do I want to be with her?

If I accept, then what? And if I don't, then what?

If I accept, will I ever make her happy? Will I be able to love her? Will I be able to make time for her? Will I be able to maintain a relationship with her?

If I don't accept, then she will find someone else. Do I want that? Am I okay with that?

I thought the same thing when I was thinking about Lier's confession. This helped me to realize my feelings for Lier, but I don't know my answer to miss Serah's confession. 

I don't hate her, but I don't know whether I love her or not. What if I am mistaking like with love?

Like and love are two different things. I realized it after I spent my time with Elena. She made me realize it. 

If I answer with my half-hearted feelings, I will just end up hurting her. She will be sad. She will cry, but she will also cry if I reject her. 

Elena told me to follow my heart.

She said she will support me in whatever I choose.

I still have to confess to Lier. I don't know what Lier will say when I ask her if she is okay with sharing me or not.

There are also those men. They are after me, after the Edens family. If I accept her confession, then they might attack her too. 

I don't want to put her life in danger. I don't want her to die...dammit. I got my answer to her confession.

I realized my feelings. I don't want her to die. I will definitely be sad if she dies.

"Miss Serah...I love you too" 

"Huh?...really?"

"Yeah. I love you"

"Wha...I...haaa"

She started crying.

She hugged me and cried for minutes.

"Are you okay now, Miss Serah?"

"I am sorry I showed you my embarrassing side" 

I don't mind it!

"Miss Serah I--"

She kissed me.

Dammit!

I let my guard down!

I am kissing some girl other than my girlfriend. 

I feel guilty.

Lier has kissed me too, but it was different. This time, I let a girl kiss me.

"I am sorry. I couldn't hold myself back"

I have no idea what and how I should reply.

"It's okay"

"Did you like it?"

Don't ask that!

"I don't know" 

"Then I need to kiss you one more time"

"Yeah! The kiss was good!"

One kiss is enough!

"That was my first kiss by the way"

"...."

She did say before that she doesn't have any experience.

"It was exciting" she said, licking her lips. 

"The kiss?"

"Yes, but I was talking about..."

Her face is flushed. 

"About?"

"You know...I am a teacher and you are a student. Not only that, but I also kissed a boy who is 6 years younger than me...wait, is that even allowed? Will I be arrested for this?"

"It is not allowed, but I don't think you will get arrested for this"

If it was the other way around. If our roles had switched. If she was a high school girl, and I was a teacher, then I would have definitely got arrested.

That's kind of not fair. 

"It should be more exciting for you though"

"Huh?"

"You kissed your high school teacher, an older girl, a girl other than your girlfriend. That is too much"

You are the one who did that!

"I will tell her that you kissed me" 

"You will tell her?!"

"Of course, I will"

"Won't she get angry?"

"I don't know. She might get angry"

"I will have to hide from her for a while"

"There is no need. She might have already known that this will happen"

"You always take her side"

"She is my girlfriend"

"What about me?"

"You are..."

What is she?

Is she my girlfriend too? Wait, are we going out?

She just confessed to me. She didn't ask me to go out with her. 

"My apologies. I didn't make it clear"

"What?"

"I love you, and I am happy that you love me back, but we can't go out"